I hope I can show you, just how much I love you.

My children are my entire world. Their my mind, body, heart & soul. I hope that I can be the best mother I can be, and show them just how much they mean to me, every day of their lives. I want them to be sure of my love, and to never doubt that I absolutely put them above all else. They are my reason for living, the reason I push on through the rough times. The reason why when life knocks me down to my knees, I pray, and I get back up again. I push through for them. I want them to know that I don't regret anything to do with them. I have the most amazing and beautiful life. So, I'm not rich. I'm not famous. I don't own a nice car, half the time I can barely make ends meet, but true happiness doesn't lie within the material riches, it lies within the riches of the soul. I'm happy because I have wonderful children, a wonderful family, a husband who adores me and whom I adore. I am rich in many ways, you may not see it, you may not think me rich, but believe me I am.

Chloe Alexandria May;
You are an amazing little girl. Only 2 years old but yet you shine like the brightest star. You express yourself in the most creative ways. Your intelligent and beautiful. You are exuberant and sometimes a handful. You have so much personality for such a little girl, and you are so kind hearted and caring. You see the world differently than us adults, and you're not jaded or closed-minded about anything. I love you so much sometimes it aches. You will always be my baby even though you are my first born. I will remember forever the day I found out I was pregnant. I will remember forever the first time I got to hold you in my arms. You'll always be my baby.

Cameron James Murphy;
I may not have carried you for 9 months, or birthed you myself, but to me you're just as much mine. I love you like I love your sister. You are a handsome little man who is always out for my heart. You say the funniest things and your laugh lights up my day. You speak so well and show amazing developmental progress..you are a brilliant little boy and I can't tell you how much I miss you when you're gone with your mother. You teach Chloe new things and show her how to rock 'n' roll. You are so artistic and fun. You play daddy's video games like a pro. I love you so much..you're going to be my little heart breaker and I pray you'll know as you get older than even though you're not mine biologically, I love you all the same. I love you more than life itself. You are my son in my eyes and you make me so proud to be your step-mommy. Every day that you call me 'mommie' makes me feel like my heart is going to explode.

Cael Jeremiah Murphy;
I haven't met you yet, but I've been incubating you for almost 8 months now. I've felt you grow inside me, felt your movements from the tiniest little flutter, to the progressively stronger jabs and kicks, to the hiccups and rolling. You respond so well to mine & daddy's voice. You kick like crazy when sissy or bubba are talking to you. You like all of Daddy's music and you can never stay still. I'm sure you're just like your father and going to be ADD. lol. You're already mommy's little hell raiser but that's okay. I love you so much and every day that I hold you inside my body so you can grow, my love grows for you as well. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and see your angelic face. I know you've been trying to come out but it's not time yet, you need to stay inside me a little longer so that you come out strong & healthy. God knows when it's time. I can't wait for everyone to meet you and to show you how much I love you every day for the rest of your life.



No matter what I pray that I can be the best mommy I can and show you guys how much I love and cherish you all for the rest of your lives. & When I finally pass away I pray that you'll understand that I'll be by your side even in death. I will be your guardian angel, I will help you in times of despair, I'll always be taking care of you. That's my job as a mother. It's also the most amazing thing I have ever, or will ever do in my life. You guys are my everything.

I love you.